I’m convinced Tonatiuh is mad at me.
He punishes me because I’ve abandoned Him,
He doesn’t believe in my tears when I say that I miss Him;
Instead, He laughs at me so hard
that the sky cries season after season.
I’ve spent so many years under the sun, under Tonatiuh’s breath,
but now I spend my days yearning for His power.
The sacrifices I’ve made to honor Him do not satisfied Him;
perhaps because my actions have taken place on Musqueum land
and I don’t think Tonatihu is acquainted with the Musqueum people.
He doesn’t reign where I live,
yet, He has managed to contact Those in charge where I sleep
so they can guaranteed Him my unhappiness.
I wonder if the Ones in charge of my sleep even like me, why would they?
I live on unceded Indigenous land,
a place where honour, respect and recognition
have been ignored for too long.
How can I get Tonatiuh to love me again?
How can I fix this?
I don’t think He’ll ever forgive me for leaving Him behind,
but I hope that He knows, how much I love Him and miss Him.